Saturday, November 30, 2013


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah~! May Allah showers you with His blessings. ^^

There was a time during venepuncture class, there was one lecturer out of the blue diagnosed me with one kind of disease. Haha. I'm kinda shocked actually but it is kinda expected. Hmm. =,=
In medicine, venipuncture, venopuncture or venepuncture is the process of obtaining intravenous access for the purpose of intravenous theraphy or for blood sampling of venous blood. -Wiki
By just looking at my physical appearance, he can detect there is something wrong with it. Jeng jeng jeng. I wish to become a doctor like him where can easily detect a disease by just looking at the symptoms. Ain't it cool? No wonder, all these while, I feel so uneasy especially during my sleeping time and when I'm walking. Seriously, it does affect my sleep and it is really hurt even though it is just occasionally. Once it attacks me, all the pains make me uncomfortable and it is really painful! And it is not something that I can ignore where sometimes I did crying when it 'stroked' me. Which in the morning, I can still feel the pain and it limiting my daily activities especially when walk all the way to lecture hall.

Now, all things make sense. Back then I thought it is just a normal condition that happened out of sudden. In fact, I'm not really questioning it, or maybe sometimes I did questioned back; where it end up by just vanishing without answer. But since I know the fact, I became more conscious on it and try to reduce the possibility of getting back the pain. 

For those out there, please be grateful for each nikmat you got. There will always someone out there wish to have what you have. ^^ People tend to appreciate something when it is gone. Don't let it happens! Value each single things you have, your family, your friends, house, ability to acquire new knowledge, and last but not least, the greatest nikmat out of all, Islam itself.

Additional info:
Disease and illness give two different meaning. Disease is an alteration of the mental and/or physical structure of the human body or mind while Illness refers to the human response to disease. 

By the way, next week I will get my assignment's result; where the mark will be accumulated for this semester result. Huwaa. T_T Please pray for my best. Thanks.

p/s: The fact that my mutabaah amal is more consistent in here compared to previous. Alhamdulillah.

Amalan yang paling dicintai oleh Allah adalah amalan yang berterusan walaupun sedikit. [Riwayat Muslim]
"Belum tibakah waktunya bagi orang-orang beriman, untuk secara khusyuk mengingat Allah dan mematuhi kebenaran yang telah diwahyukan (kepada mereka) dan janganlah mereka (berlaku) seperti orang-orang yang telah menerima kitab sebelum itu, kemudian mereka melalui masa yang panjang sehingga hati mereka menjadi keras. Dan banyak di antara mereka menjadi orang-orang yang fasik." 
[al-Hadid, 57:16] 

I was always walking alone, When I turned around everyone was far behind
Even so I kept walking, That was what strength was
"I’m not afraid of anything anymore," I try to whisper to myself
Everyone becomes alone someday living on only in memories
So that I can love and laugh even in loneliness I will fight
I will show no tears

I was always walking alone, A cliff waited for me at my destination
Even so I kept walking as proof of my strength
The strong wind blew against me, My shirt stuck to me with sweat
If I can forget everything someday living will become so much simpler
If I fall past oblivion that’s just running away
If only the meaning of having lived would disappear

Before long the wind died down and the sweat evaporated
I've become hungry, Did something happen?
Together with vibrant voices a pleasant scent came along

I was always walking alone, Everyone was waiting

Everyone becomes alone someday living on only in memories
Even so it's fine, I will call these peaceful feelings my companions
Living somewhere I will someday forget the days that I spent with everyone as well
At that time I won't be strong anymore
With the weakness of a normal girl tears will overflow~

-Brave Song, Angel Beat

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Tuesday, November 12, 2013


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

I should have expected this kind of thing will happen! The truth is I already expected that thing will happen if I insist to do it. Arghh, I should stick with my plan but I end up break the rule. Don't give up on it because that is the best thing I MUST do concerning my condition right now. I know myself better than anyone. What a mistake!!!! I hate that! I am totally disappointed with myself. No one will help you, Alyani, trust me. This thing only make the thing worse. I end up hating all of them. It is just a matter of time. Why you no refrain yourself!!! Why I let the same things keep on repeating if I know the ending will be the same? There is no use to change it. I have dealt with this matter for thousands of times. i should know the consequences. Whyyyyyy??? 

Can I go back at that particular moment, so that I can change all the things that I am fully regretted now, pleaseee. T_T

Indeed, no need to please anyone. Work hard and strive to please Allah instead. 
p/s: Sometimes, humans are really suck and causes unnecessary suffering to other people which make me thinks that loneliness is better than bad company. Oh well.


2nd p/s: Alhamdulillah, just got my exam result last week. The moment I saw it, rasa macam terus nak buat sujud syukur. All praises are due to Allah. Need to do better than this next time. Yosh~!!!
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Saturday, November 2, 2013


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم


Stay away from Anger.
It hurts, Only YOU!
If you are right then there is no need to get angry.
And if you are wrong then you don't have any right to get angry.

Patience with family is love,

Patience with others is respect,
Patience with self is confidence and,
Patience with GOD is faith.

Never think hard about the PAST, It brings tears... 
Don't think more about the FUTURE, It brings fear...
Live this moment with a smile, It brings cheer...

Every test in our lives make us bitter or better, 
Every problem comes to make us or break us, 
The choice is ours whether we become victims or victorious. 

Search for a beautiful heart not a beautiful face.
Beautiful things are not always good but good things are always beautiful.

Happiness keeps you sweet, 
Trials keep you strong, 
Sorrows keep you human, 
Failures keep you humble, 
Success keeps you glowing, 
But only God keeps YOU going!

p/s: how time flies! and just realized there is something missing. 

2nd p/s: will be having my first exam, 150 multiple choice questions. lub dub lub dup. lol. may Allah ease everything.